Hilaria Baldwin, who is married to Alec Baldwin, shared some heartbreaking news about her most recent pregnancy, which has sadly ended in a miscarriage at four months. The 35-year-old mom was very open about her experience, posting about the devastating loss on Instagram.
We are very sad to share that today we learned that our baby passed away at 4 months. We also want you to know that even though we are not ok right now, we will be. We are so lucky with our 4 healthy babies�and we will never lose sight of this. I told Carmen and took this so I could send it to Alec. I guess this is a good way to share it with you too.
I told her that this baby isn�t going to come after all...but we will try very hard to give her a little sister another time. I�m really devastated right now...I was not expecting this when I went to my scan today. I don�t know what else to say...I�m still in shock and don�t have this all quite clear. Please no paparazzi...that�s all I ask ??
Hilaria continued the explanation on her Instagram story.
I told [Carmen] that this baby isn�t going to come after all�but we will try very hard to give her a little sister another time. I�m really devastated right now�I was not expecting this when I went to my scan today. I don�t know what else to say�I�m still in shock and don�t have this all quite clear. Today opened and it was not a nightmare�just a sad reality. Thank you for all of your kind and sympathetic words. I didn�t know so many tears existed in the body. I�m trying to be present for my grief but understand that life goes on and there is still beauty, even in darkness.
A day after announcing that she had lost the baby, Hilaria underwent D&C surgery. She posted about this experience as well.
�Eyes swollen from crying, groggy from anesthesia, crampy from the surgery � but it and I want you to know that I�m physically ok,� Hilaria wrote alongside a post-op selfie. �I�m grateful for my family, friends, doctors and nurses, and all of you who have held my hand through this difficult time. You have no idea how much this means to me.�
�One foot in front of the other � now I begin the healing journey ??,� she concluded.
A few days later, Hilaria explained that she was doing better thanks to the support of those around her.
�Little update: I�m doing better,� she wrote on her Instagram story. �I have my moments when I feel better then I have moments when I will get really sad. But I feel like time and healing and everyone�s support is helping me. Spending time with my babies and husband helps so much. I�m so lucky to have them. My heart goes out to those of you who suffer like this without support. You are true warriors. I send you my love and admiration.�
Hilaria shares four children with her husband, daughter Carmen, 6, and sons Romeo Alejandro David, 17 months, Leonardo �ngel Charles, 3, and Rafael Thomas, 4. Sadly, this is not the first time that Hilaria has had to share this devastating news. This is her second miscarriage in seven months.
I want to share with you that I am most likely experiencing a miscarriage. I always promised myself that if I were to get pregnant again, I would share the news with you guys pretty early, even if that means suffering a public loss. I have always been so open with you all about my family, fitness, pregnancies...and I don�t want to keep this from you, just because it isn�t as positive and shiny as the rest. I think it�s important to show the truth...because my job is to help people by being real and open.
Furthermore, I have no shame or embarrassment with this experience. I want to be a part of the effort to normalize miscarriage and remove the stigma from it. There is so much secrecy during the first trimester. This works for some, but I personally find it to be exhausting. I�m nauseous, tired, my body is changing. And I have to pretend that everything is just fine�and it truly isn�t. I don�t want to have to pretend anymore. I hope you understand.
So, this is what is going on now: the embryo has a heartbeat, but it isn�t strong, and the baby isn�t growing very much. So we wait�and this is hard. So much uncertainty...but the chances are very, very small that this is a viable pregnancy. I have complete confidence that my family and I will get through this, even if the journey is difficult.
I am so blessed with my amazing doctor, my dear friends, and my loving family...My husband and my four very healthy babies help me keep it together and have the perspective of how truly beautiful life is, even when it occasionally seems ugly. The luck and gratitude I feel that I am my babies� mommy, is wonderfully overwhelming and comforting.In your comments, please be kind. I�m feeling a bit fragile and I need support. I�m hoping, that by sharing this, I can contribute to raising awareness about this sensitive topic.
Seeing Hilaria be so open about miscarriage is helping take away the stigma and letting women realize they can reach out for help, but some people are suggesting that she's being too open about her experience, especially sharing selfies after surgery.